#13 - I'm so confused

For a while now I thought I was going to be okay. I had friends. I had family. I had school. I had my website. What else did I need? Those were the only things that were going to help me get over Ian.

But I feel like it's all just slipping away. I can't talk to my family about anything, because they don't understand. They'll never understand. I hate putting everything on Ashley and Haley. I love them any everything, but this whole Ian thing is something that they'll never get. So I can't talk to them about it. School is making me crazy busy, but not helping me get him off my mind. And PSP. Well, PSP is pretty much ending.

Everything is falling apart. I feel like I'm slipping again. I don't know what to do.

-Laura

#12 - I'm so proud

I feel like a proud mama right now. That's weird wording, but I feel it.

JBTV, Madina Lake, and Matthew Leone are up for 2 Emmy nominations for the interview/video that JBTV did on the Return of Matthew Leone concert show.

I'm so proud. I'm in tears.

Congrats Madina Lake. Congrats Matthew. I knew you guys could do it. Even if you don't win, you've won. I love you.

-Laura

#11 - I have no life

Seriously. lol I've been watching Full House like a mad man since I found a masterpost of it.

I have no social life. It's school and full house. Fuck everything else. XD

Just kidding, but I am watching way too much Full House this week. XD Oh well. I don't have anything due for classes, so might as well do something. lol

I'm tired as hell though.

I'm going to bed though. 11am class. Math. T_T

-Laura

#10 - Some pictures from Saturday.

Best night of my life. That is all.

-Laura

#9 - This weekend was amazing.

Have you ever felt so comfortable somewhere else that you've never wanted to return? Well, that's how I feel after this weekend. I spent my weekend in Chicago with 2 of my best friends ever, Ashley and Erin. It was amazing and our first trip away from home without our parents.

Just...being on the road and hundreds of miles away an just having a great time...it was the most amazing thing ever. I didn't want to leave, but unfortunately...all good things come to an end. So I'm back home feeling very nostalgic.

I saw Madina Lake Saturday night. My favorite band ever. Their music has helped me so much. I know that fans say this all the time, but they truly have saved my life. And I'm so thankful that I got to see them live again after 3 years. I even interviewed their drummer Dan. It was honestly...the greatest thing ever. So thankful and happy. I love that band. I even met their guitarist, Mateo...and when I told him I was a really old fan, he hugged me (without warning) and kissed my cheek. I thought I was going to die; I really did. I love them. There's not much more to it.

I'm going to bed though. So tired. Goodnight.

-Laura

#8 - Can't Sleep

So I'm sitting here in Chicago in a hotel; not being able to sleep. There's a lot of reasons I guess. I'm kind of down. I don't know why. This weekend was supposed to be a happy one. But the moment that Erin brought up Ian...I don't know my mood just went down a bit. And I've done a really good job at hiding the fact that I'm upset by acting/looking tired, but on the inside...I'm still hurting about it. And I don't know what to do.

On a positive note, I'm not able to sleep because I'm seeing my favorite band, Madina Lake, tonight. I'm really freaking out. I have a bad feeling that I'm going to start crying. I really do think that. And it's going to be so unprofessional because I'm interviewing them too. God. >_< Why am I such a girl? Blah.

-Laura

#7 - Today is my 18th birthday!

Well, it all starts from here. I'm an adult. Time to grow up.

-Laura

#6 - Almost 18

So I'm sitting in my Criminal Justice class. I'm always early. I'm always early to all of my classes. Does that make me seem like a nerd? Nahhhh. A lot of people get to classes early. Hell, there were people here before I came in.

But that's beside the point. I'm just kinda bored, waiting for class to start. I think I'm coming down with a cold. >_< My nose feels all stuffy and my throat is scratchy. I can't afford to get sick now. I have to be at all of my classes. Ahhh >_< Kill me.

Anyways, I turn 18 on Tuesday! Finally, right? I'm the last of my friends to turn 18. I'm pretty excited. I don't plan on doing anything special really. Just kinda enjoying my friends and family. Going to rio with my besties next week sometime. :) Yeah.

So I'm going out of town on the 16th! After class, of course. But it's going to be fun! It's mine and Ashley's first "far away" trip without our parents. We're going to Chicago for the weekend with Cheesy and we're going to see Madina Lake and interview them! So so so so so so so excited!!! :3 I might cry when meeting them. They're my favorite band and they mean a lot to me.

Ahhhh! >_< Idk what else to say. So I'm going to end it there. Sorry this post is boring and stuff. I'm pretty tired and I just felt like updating.

-Laura