#4 - I like you...but I'm lost right now.

You are the most perfect person I have ever met. And I'm not just saying that because I think I could possibly be in love with you, let alone I already like you.

And it sucks because, I'm going to take a shot in the dark by saying this, you don't like me back. At least, I have a good feeling you don't. You're a musician. You're going to be extremely famous one day. And I'm just a girl, struggling to pass and pay for college. Do you see the problem here?

And so many people think that it's just this school girl crush or it's because you're practically famous. But the truth is...it's not that. When I met you I thought you were gorgeous and sweet. I've been with you guys since you started the band last year. And I've done everything I can to help you guys out. And through all of that...you and I become really good friends over the year. You're one of my best friends. And I love you. When we started to get to know each other I never thought that I would actually fall for you. And I didn't at first. I just thought you were a sweet guy that would be a good friend. But then it all changed last September.

I fell for you hard. When Sarah and I stopped being friends and I was really upset you texted me to make sure that I was okay. And you helped me feel better. You were like "I was just thinking about you and I thought I'd see how you were". And after we talked and you helped me through it...that's when I realized that I was starting to really like you.

And over this past year...the more and more I got to know you...the more I realized that I was falling in love with you. The more and more I wanted to be with you. I wanted you to hug me and to rub my back and tell me everything was going to be okay. And when you "asked me out on a date" (I think I thought of it as something more than it was) I went home from that concert a happy girl. I vlogged and everything about how I was going on a "date" with Joe.

And then when you helped me through my breakup...when you stopped me from killing myself that night...I knew you were someone that I couldn't afford to lose. Someone that I need in my life. Someone that I want to be with.

And it sucks...because I'll never get the guts to tell you how I feel. I'll always be waiting in the sidelines as you move forward with your music and date all these hot guys, while I continue to stay ugly and support you band from afar.

I love you. And I wish I could tell you.

-Laura